Monday, December 12, 2011

My Little Kitchen

I used to be so good!  I used to share tons of recipes.  And then I stopped. It wasn't on purpose.  I just forgot to keep going.  I started all of this because I have an awful memory.  And I am no good with papers.  I have a desk full of papers that I never look at.  So I started this. 

So I am trying to start again.  With Mac N Cheese. I made it in my new(ish) pressure cooker!  But of course, it needed more crunch. So I baked it.  My goal is to post at least once a week, if not twice or thrice.  I'm looking forward to this follow through, following through.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

As Fall turns into Winter

I took today off.  Well, I went to work, but I also left very early.  About 6 hours early.  It was lovely.  I had a wonderful day.  My alarm clock went off.  I took a shower.  I made my husband's lunch.  I went to work and made sub plans.  And then I left.  I finished grading my tests.  And I ran errands.  I mailed packages to soldiers that I know and love, and some that I don't know but still love. 

There was a purpose.  I was going to see the doctor today, but I got what I needed today without my doctor's help.  So long story short, I was very, very late this cycle.  We thought I was pregnant. But 10 tests (slight exaggeration, but only by 4) and blood work confirmed that I was very not pregnant.  And today my body confirmed all those tests.  After the first test (13 days ago) I was sad.  But each test just kept confirming that first answer.  So, while I should be sad because I don't have a baby right now, I am not.  I am excited to try again this month.  In fact, the thing that makes me the happiest is the love I feel from my hubby.  Matt is amazing.  We are in the best place we have ever been.  And this not baby has helped us get here. So while I am sad about the baby that wasn't, I am so much happier in the marriage that is. 

And so, while I should have been sad all day today, it has also rained all day.  I have been listening to the rain since I woke up this morning.  And instead of being sad, it has been so relaxing. Because in order for Spring to bloom, Autumn needs to turn in to Winter. So I hope this rain turns into snow soon. 

I hope that I can always see the flowers through the rainstorm.